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So, I've Decided

by The Hacking

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1.
6 months later, we're both traitors. Now I cater to the sea I fish. I wish the best. But they are the ones that are catching me. I threw out photos and old notes Yeah girl, I threw them out to sea The things that hurt that the most though, they're just way too deep inside of me I remember our first Christmas, and the day our child was born. I remember waking up to your breath, whiskey wet and warm. I'm broken, shattered, just a bunch of pieces laid upon the floor. There's glue and tape but there is nothing as adhesive as before. I lay inside my cabin, wish for sleep. It doesn't rain, it pours. "No fish today," I think. "We will see what tomorrow has in store." If this ship starts to sink I hope this bottle makes it to your shore. "You were my dying thought and every single one I had before."
2.
My New Home 01:34
Land! As my feet hit the dock I know I've found my new rock As the wind blows through my hair I can smell that mountain air My new home
3.
Moved On 02:55
We tried to run, but sometimes we can't run. I tried to run but I can't We'll try to run, but sometimes we can't run You'll try to run but you can't But I stopped fucking caring when I saw who you were But I stopped fucking caring and the rest is a blur But you just sat there staring, waiting for me Yeah, you just sat there staring until I set you free I moved on from you I've moved on, have you? I know what you're thinking but I don't know why you think it. I don't think I ever will and that's okay. I know what you're feeling but I don't know why you feel it. I don't feel I ever will and that's okay. I know what you're saying but I don't know why you say it. I won't say I ever will, if that's okay? Hey! Oh But I stopped fucking caring when I saw who you were Yeah, I stopped fucking caring and the rest is a blur But you just sat there staring, waiting for me Yeah, you just sat there staring until I set you free I moved on from you I've moved on, have you I moved on from you I've moved on, have you
4.
Every breath I take, I take a step back and realize that every breath that I've taken so far has probably been meaningless. Every step I take, I take a breath and wait, take baby steps. It's probably all that I can take, to make mistakes, to mistake the stakes. Every day I think a day will come where thinking daily comes as natural as greed or breeding. Heed the warnings of this breathless boy. I lie awake at night and look at the stars. even though I'm among them, they seem so far. I know I'd get there if I only try, But I'll just lay here and wonder why. We're just machines processing collected data But only that which only senses can perceive It's just the two of us until the world is through with us In this new version of you and me (we're not supposed to know) I lay awake at night and look at the stars, But now they just point me to where you are. I know I'd get there if I only tried, And I know now I'll be there, right by your side Deep in the city, where the girl resides She's amongst a many heartless drunken lies Deep in the city, where I now call my home She's amongst a many senseless broken clones To the little girl deep in the city I hope that I can find you again You opened doors that I had sealed closed And gave me a means to my end
5.
We Grow 02:20
Me, broke, shattered, bare You sewed. A tailor to my seams, I know A reckoning of dreams, you showed A battered boy his means We grow. A willingness to speak A thousand blockades breached Shadows so far behind I forget they're even mine How did you find me out here Amongst the brutes, amongst the beasts, amongst the savages Amongst the suits. Amongst the weak, amongst the additives How did I find you out here Amongst the bored, amongst the sore amongst the counterfeit. Amongst the stored, amongst the whores, amongst the ones who quit. How did we find each other I get this feeling when I look into your eyes and I can't stand to look away in fear of losing any time with you. I think that I have separation issues, I'm not asking for a tissue, just an opportunity to see how long you can stand to sit there and listen to me ramble. If you think that it's a gamble don't feel bad for tuning out. I do it too to you sometimes but I still hear... Her voice "rejoice, I've made my choice" Her mind don't mind "we'll be just fine"
6.
Your breath, like the snow, making wild things go Your breath, like the rain, relieving all my pain Your breath, like the trees, it brings me to my knees Your breath, like the snow, it shows me where to go I hesitate to show all my true colors to my brothers I hesitate, I wait, I have reserve about being heard I don't hesitate when you're around, when I'm surrounded by you. I don't hesitate when I'm around you My breath, like the sun, burning everyone My breath, like the snake, hiding at the wake My breath, like the grass, staining on your ass Yeah, my breath, like the sun, it makes you want to run Your breath, like the... ...sea....
7.
"Some things never change Some parts don't rearrange Some hearts belong together Yeah, I met a man... but you don't understand.... you really fell for another." Some folks never change Some parts don't interchange Some hearts don't belong together Yeah, you met a man... but you don't understand. I really fell for another. "We might disagree but one thing you've yet to see: My power goes beyond love. There's things on you I have, that you just can't quite grab. 'Cause I'm pulling strings from above." I was just a stroke of your pen Another pixel on your page "I was in it to win But you were blinded by rage" But girl I know how you feel When I went in for the kill You were through with me then When I had unlocked your cage "No! I was wrong. You're the one God created for me I was blind but now I see" To me you've lied, from me you stole "But now I play a different role" I no longer trust anyone. It isn't a game... it isn't fun "Give me a chance, we'll find romance, remember how we used to dance?" I remember...
8.
Eyes wide open. Surroundings soak in. I vomit at the sound of your breathing and baby boy feeding. My feet hit the ground. Naked. Fleeing, without her seeing and "Oh, what have I done? I've let it happen again. Oh look what I've done." Now I'm screaming for you, to you. I'm running to you. Now I'm being beaten by me before you get to beat me. How do I tell you? I'll tell you how I do tell you, here is how: "I went out of my head. But I'm back in it now." "I cannot forget I can forgive I am sobered, pushing it over, I vomit at the sound of your pleading. A secretive meeting, my head running round I see a vision, without a mission and 'Oh, what have I done? I've let her into my head And that means she's won...' ...but you are human. ...and I'm human too."
9.
A glimmer of a light from a fire still burning. You were yearning. You weren't ready to put it out, but the water breaks and the elements have their say... But the water breaks and... You're pregnant with more than empty words now. Trapped in the warmth between your legs, He's just a medicine for your head. For four lives its a fresh start. For five lives its the beginning. Cain should have been able And Abel should've been caned A flicker of a light from a fire still burning. You were yearning. You weren't ready to put it out but the water breaks and the elements have their say.... ...But if they hadn't spoke I know I would've, anyway. Cause I've made these mountains my home and I think I'm here to stay. Yeah, I've made it this far on my own and I think we've had our day. And as tempting as it may seem to be, I've found a better way...
10.
I've found doubt inside the walls It slips through cracks It moves down halls It's in the sea It's in the trees It's filled up them, it's filling me But I've no doubt when I'm with you You see, through all this mess, You see through all this mess You see, I see you seeing me And oh God what a sight to see I've no doubt when I'm with you I sailed the sea of red I said I'd see it til the end My boat now docked, sidearm now uncocked and ready to run home now to you And I will try to make things alright for me, for you and I. Yeah, we'll try to make things alright for me, for you and I My blanket was the freezing air Then I looked up and you were there The wind tugging hard at the trees The earth shaking beneath our feet You took me in, you warmed me up, you filled my stomach, sealed my cuts Now I only see your face, it has my memory erased (I don't need you to survive, in fact, I'm better off without you.) (Cause they're still laughing at me.) (You're my best friend.) ...but am I still alone? ...I'm still alone...
11.
You made all of my fears completely disappear Your breath, like the sea Your breath, like a child, innocent but wild Your breath, like the day, keeping me awake Your breath, like the night, helping me sleep tight Your breath, like a child. I saw you and I smiled Calm me down, I'll calm you down Our breath, like the stream, flowing fast and clean Our breath, like the birds, just repeating words Our breath, like the deer, simple soft and queer Our breath, like the stream, I'll show you what it means I don't hesitate when you're around, when I surrounded by you. I don't hesitate when I'm around you. Shipwreck. I am the jetsam, overboard, You are the flotsam washed ashore, the lagan waiting to be reclaimed. I am the derelict that hit the floor and no one ever came. Now that the ships been sinking for awhile there's a small pang of sadness behind each and every smile No vessel can't be sank So now he drifts across the ocean on his desert plank "I leave more aware than in the dark" He journeys off, expectations reached Led only by his heart "I leave more repaired than torn apart" 6 months later, we're both traitors... ...now I cater to the sea.

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A bunch of modernized sea shanties about a fisherman with a breath fetish

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released October 25, 2015

Dustin Dustin Dustin - Guitar, lead vocals
Erickson Skinner - Keyboard, percussion, lead vocals
David Richmond - Bass guitar, backing vocals
Justin Cole - Drums, Backing vocals
D.J. Richardson - Drums, percussion, programming

Natalie Gjertsen - backing vocals on tracks 8, 9, and 10

Music and lyrics written by Dustin Dustin Dustin
Arranged and performed by The Hacking
Produced by D.J. Richardson and Dustin Dustin Dustin

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Aaron Sarlo, Kara Bibb, Shayne Gray, Tyler Evans, Elgin Venable, Natalie Gjertsen, Hunter Mann, Cory Fisher, Todd Webber, Leeaux, Nathan Houser, Ira Miller, Jonathan Berkshire, Jeff Matika, Bryan Frazier, Brugh Foster, Michelle Adcock, Kelly Kish, Casey Jones, Colton Davis, Justin Bulloch, Austin Clark, Kit Hughes, Taylor Davis, Tanner Morris, Ghost Bones, Buffalo Rodeo, Through the Eyes of Lily, Trophy Boyfriends, RadRadRiot, Shoplift, Landrest, Black Horse, Enchiridion, The Casual Pleasures, Mumblr, Robert and Kim Montgomery, Joe and Tiffany Hicks, Velouria, Peace Boner, Move Orchestra, Noah James, Hunter Godfrey, SAE, Trey Kidwell, Skin Mike, David Leonard, Colton Knight, Nouns, Jimmy Spice and anybody else who has helped us in anyway.

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The Hacking Little Rock, Arkansas

The Hacking is an energetic diverse five piece percussion-heavy indie garage rock band with concentration on their harmonious vocals and technical style.


Dustin Dustin Dustin
Erickson Skinner
Justin Cole
David Richmond
D.J. Richardson
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